Saturday, June 03, 2006

More Pictures!!...

Okay... Some more pictures... Malas lak nak menaip...



A picture before we embark on our MASUM adventure...





Warming-up before training at MSN Sports Complex Keramat...





Introducing our Captain:
Mohd Faiz Abu Samah
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Psychology





Our Assistant Coach, Kak Aisah... She's currently a state player... And country player as well, I think...










Fooling around during the Masum Launching Night...





IIUM humble archers, and their troublesome assistant manager...





Our proud bows... Mine's the one with YAMAHA written on it...





Group photo together with our Coach, Encik Ismail, and his assistant, Kak Aisah...





Warming up before the last battle...





Discussing battle plans...





Aftermath picture... FYI, yours truly got a high fever right after the match...


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Here's something I snatched from The Sun Online... It's an interview with one of our venerable filmmaker that we all should be proud of, Yasmin Ahmad...
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All about feelings



Bissme S.



Yasmin Ahmad, who shot to prominence with her touching Petronas commercials, has been very much in the news lately as her latest films, Sepet and Gubra, have drawn a great deal of controversy. It began when a producer was unhappy that Sepet was adjudged the Best Film at the Malaysian Film Festival 2005 over the RM20 million production, Puteri Gunung Ledang. Then a Malay daily ran a series of articles that discredited Sepet. A forum on TV saw two of the panellists criticising Yasmin and calling her films pencemar budaya (culture polluters). Hurt, the director is not submitting Gubra for this year's Malaysian Film Festival. But she is not discouraged and will continue to make films - works with feeling. The talented Yasmin shares with BISSME S. how she wishes people would just see the love and compassion in her films.



theSun: What is the message you try to impart in your films?

A film doesn't have to have a message. How I decide whether I like a film or not, is whether the film has feelings.
Feelings don't just mean tears and great melodramas - which my films are filled with. Feelings are also about laughter, compassion, joy, sadness, disappointment, fear and relief.


So you put more emphasis on feelings than messages?


Yes. Nothing intellectual, nothing rational. Just feelings. In my movies, I want people to feel love and compassion. I want people to choose them to the opposite - no love and no compassion.


What is the biggest limitation you face as a filmmaker in Malaysia?


My own limitation. I often feel I am not good enough.


Why do you think you are not good enough?


When I watch old films by Charlie Chaplin, Buster Keaton, Billy Wilder, Satyajit Ray, and early films of Stanley Kubrick, I realise their films are so much better and they were made so long ago. They made me feel a kind of nothing. My biggest limitation in this country and anywhere else is myself. I feel I have a long way to go.


What do you think of the censorship board?


It has begun to improve greatly. The passing of Lelaki Komunis Terakhir (LKT) and Gubra led me to think the censorship board is now headed by someone much more level-headed and much more understanding of films.


But LKT was banned.


It wasn't the censorship (board) that clamped down on LKT. It was the home ministry. In one clean sweep, some ministry has declared Lembaga Penapis Filem (LPF) is nothing. Why have LPF when you are not going to respect its decision?
You appointed the people and you pay their salary and you completely disregard their decision. As a filmmaker I feel this ban is the biggest joke in the film industry.



Have you watched LKT and what do you think of it?


LKT is a lovely film that doesn't glorify Chin Peng in any way. It is a film where in the end, it shows that ideology has nothing to do with it and people are the product of their environment.
Chin Peng was born in a very violent environment - with a lot of fighting between freedom fighters and British colonialists and then the Japanese.
He came out from this violent environment and became violent himself. The film doesn't forgive him for what he did. In the end, the communists collaborated with the British to oust the Japanese.
People they are against, they collaborated with. It is not about ideology at all. It is about power and it is about economics more than anything else. It puts things in perspective.


What do you think of all the negative comments that have been said of Lelaki Komunis Terakhir?


There is a reason why Special Branch didn't have a problem with the film. There is a reason why LPF didn't have a problem with the film. I hope it will be shown. It puts things in perspective. It is funny and it has musical breaks which are hilarious.



Are you afraid that your next film will suffer the same fate as LKT?


I am only afraid of God. Even then, it is not enough. I should fear God even more. My parents had taught me only to fear God. Like Chin Peng, I am a product of my environment. Though I fear for my next film, I just continue making films. The fate of my film is really in God's hands.


Recently there was a forum on TV which hinted your movies Sepet and Gubra mencemarkan budaya (polluted the culture). What is your comment on the show?


I didn't see the programme when it was on air. But somebody showed me a recording. I can understand why so many people are outraged by it. It is not so much the comments on my films. It is the racist comments that they passed which I am very surprised that nobody has rapped their knuckles for it.
I am surprised nobody came down on a forum which everybody watched and which was bluntly racist and clearly unsettling for society. I was shocked by the racial slur. I was sure the authorities were coming down on them but they didn't.


Do you think your films mencemarkan budaya?


If they can define what budaya means, I might state an opinion. Do they mean Budaya Melayu?


I think they did mean Budaya Melayu.


The forum was conducted by people who were dressed like Western people. I wear Melayu bajus more often than they do. I don't understand what this Budaya Melayu really means. I have heard some people say Budaya Melayu is budaya lemah lembut (gentle).
But I find the Japanese are more lemah lembut than the Melayu. We don't hold the candle for lemah lembut. In fact, the forum itself proved, given the things people said, the champions of Budaya Melayu are not so lemah lembut, so what budaya are they championing?


Has the forum discouraged you from making films?


I am making another film. Perhaps it has not discouraged me.


Some say in your films, you like to put down the Malay race?


Actually, in my films I put down and I put up everybody. If you think about it, in Sepet the Chinese family is quite loveless and the Malay family is full of love. If I were Chinese I could say Yasmin was putting down the Chinese.
We see what we want to see. If you draw four dots on a piece of paper, some people can draw a square, some people will draw a cross.
I really don't think I was putting down the Malays. I am Malay, why should I put down my people? There are a lot of Malays who have said in my website as well as in Kakiseni that it is ridiculous to describe my films as pencemar budaya. I think there are only a few Malays who have a problem with it. I am not like them, therefore I don't really understand them. Maybe, I am stupid, that is (the) reason I don't see why they feel that way.


Tell me more about your new movie.


It is called Mukhsin. It tries to examine one very common human condition - how (the relationship of) two very good friends of the opposite sex goes awry when one of them starts having romantic feelings for the other.
It always fascinates me why something as beautiful as friendship can be destroyed by something as beautiful as love. You would think two beautiful things put together and you will get even more beautiful things. But sometimes, you don't.


Have you experienced such feelings?


Of course. I think everybody has been through this. You are good friends with somebody and suddenly you develop romantic feelings for them. Or they develop romantic feelings for you and things go horribly wrong.
With my husband though, it worked very well. We started as friends and we fell in love.


Give theSun a sneak preview - what can we expect from your (new) movie?


There is a scene in the film where somebody mentions the phrase Pencemar Budaya (Both of us laugh loudly.)


One film personality said Yasmin should be stopped from making films. Why do you think there is so much hostility against you? Are you afraid of your harsh critics?


I really don't understand about this hostility. My films are not big box-offices and they didn't steal business from other people's films. For some reason, some people feel threatened by my films. I just think they are being silly. Like I said earlier, I am not afraid of anyone, except Allah. I remembered being told If everybody joins hands to do good for you they cannot do any more good than Allah will allow them to. If everybody joins hands to do bad to you, they cannot do any more bad than Allah will allow them to.


It is said Gubra will not participate in this year's Malaysian Film Festival. Is that true?


Yes. That is true. They have made it so painful for me for having won last year. Despite some accusations against me, I don't make films for awards. Someone once said: All an artist needs to know about awards is that Mozart never won one.
But when I meet with such hostility, many people from the mainstream (movie industry) called me to (say) go ahead and carry on your work.



How long will you stay away from the local award ceremony?


For this time. Next year, God knows.


Some people say you can't take criticism and that is why you pulled out from the Malaysian Film Festival. Your comment?


It is not the criticism that hurts. It is the weight in which the criticism was dished out. It is so constant, unending, relentless and unclamped by the authorities. It is clear victimisation. I am not going to sit here and play the game. It is not my game. As my make-up artist on the set of Gubra said, they are beating the drums, let them dance. I do not want to dance. I just want to make films.



Do you think you can handle criticism?


I don't mind people saying my film Sepet was not good enough. But who said it, annoys me. It is not criticism but where it comes from (that) annoys me. By God's blessing, the film went (on) to win the Best Asian Award at the Tokyo Film Festival and the chairman of the jury was Zhang Yimou.
It matters to me (that) he likes it. Nobody can handle criticism. It is bound to affect you. But I am still making films. Whenever I get extreme criticism, I go to Rotten Tomatoes websites. Even brilliant films like All About My Mother and Talk To Her get good and bad reviews. What is Sepet.



Where do you get inspiration?


From real life. From people. Only people interest me. How people handle love and hate and how people choose between the two.


What is the best compliment and worst criticism you have received about your films?


The best compliment is when people say my movies touched them and when they say they see people of different races in the cinema watching my movies. The worst, of course, have been so many and the worst insult to me is that my movies are pencemar budaya.


Some people say you love to push boundaries. For example, in Gubra you have a scene where a bilal touches a dog.


I don't think a bilal touching a dog was pushing the boundaries. I think casting stones at dogs for no apparent reason is pushing boundaries. So my film was in protest of people who pushed the boundaries. I don't do films just to push the boundaries, I just want to tell stories.


What is the greatest misconception people have of Yasmin Ahmad?


That I pushed boundaries. (laughs) ... That I am a rebel. But I am not.


One newspaper has been writing a series of unflattering articles about you. Are you sceptical about the media and journalists now?


Journalism is like other professions. There are good and bad ones (journalists). You would think every doctor is a good person because they are supposed to save lives. But there are doctors who prescribe medicine that is not needed. They tend to gain by this.


Who are the filmmakers you admire and why?


Charlie Chaplin. Because he managed to mix great humour with great human drama. Satyajit Ray for humanity in his films and how he achieved this with small budgets. Pedro Almodovar. Because he always features people who are outcasts and unforgivable and found redeeming qualities in them. I am impressed how forgiving he is of those whom society has not forgiven. Takishi Kitano. Because of the ease he hides the emotions and violence with minimum cuts and minimum scripting.


Any local directors you admire?


Ho Yuhang. Because he portrays the section of Chinese society that does not drive Mercedes-Benz or have a lot of money. He focuses on the poorer Chinese and believe me, they exist! He focuses on them in a very controlled and dispassionate way. He shows me a world I have not seen before.
Osman Ali, because he is not afraid to be sentimental. In the commercial world I admire Kamal Mustapha. He, of course, taught me practically everything I know about films. Contrary to popular belief, he directed most of the Petronas commercials and not me. I just wrote most of the scripts and he encouraged me to direct some of them. I admire him greatly.


Why do you think your movies are so controversial and make people uncomfortable?


I really don't know.


You must must have some idea.


(After thinking for a while) In many local films, it is very clear-cut, bad people (are) always bad and the good people always good.
Which is to me anyway, completely unfaithful to real life. In real life, good people have (some) bad in them and bad people have some good in them.
My film Sepet features someone like Orked who reads the Quran and prays and wears baju kurung. She holds the hand of a Chinese boy. Some people wonder how she can read the Quran and pray, and yet fall in love with a Chinese boy.
People don't understand I didn't make Orked out to be an angel. People want my films to feature good people as always good and bad people as always bad.
The person who said in the forum she (Orked) can't be a good Muslim if she goes out with a Chinese boy and holds his hands, I find it very silly.
Gubra shows prostitutes are not all villains. She may be bad for selling her body, but she is a good mother and takes care of her son. The grey area makes people uncomfortable.
We have been showing films and dramas where people are exemplary citizens. Society has not improved. Handbag-snatching is at an all-time high, child rape is at an all-time high and drug addiction has not abated.
Perhaps, featuring people as exemplary citizens has not worked. Perhaps understanding their contradiction might work better.


Some say you only explore human emotions in your movies and you are not a versatile director. What do you say to that?


To be told I have a particular trend in my films is not an insult to me. All the directors I admired have consistent themes in their movies.
People have asked me, why don't I make a war or sci-fi film and prove that I am a versatile filmmaker. I never went into films to be a versatile director. I went into it to examine emotions. If you want versatility, go for somebody else.


Do you get offended when people say you can never get away from Petronas commercials and that your films are long extensions of these commercials?


Not all. Petronas commercials are the most popular commercials in the history of the advertising industry in Malaysia. I would rather my films are long Petronas ads than long detergent ads.


Every director has a dream project. What is yours?


I want to make a film on Dr M. But I am not wise and knowledgeable enough to make this film. It has to be in the hands of Kamal Mustapha.


What is the best moment in your life?


When Sepet won the top award at the 27th Creteil International Women Director Festival in France last year. My parents came on stage with me to get the award. They were so happy. Every time I make my parents happy, I feel God's pleasure.


How would you like to be remembered?


It is not so important to me to be remembered. Ego and arrogance are things that God doesn't approve of. I like people to remember the love and compassion that is so prevalent in my films. Some people choose not to see it. They see other things.


Some directors love it when their movies are controversial. What about you?


It surprises me that my movies are controversial. It surprises me that people are shocked by a Malay girl in a baju kurung going to a party. Going to a party is the not worst thing that a Malay girl in baju kurung has done. My films are so tame compared to real life.
It surprises me when I show a scene of an elderly couple very much in love; people call it obscene.
But, almost on a weekly basis, they watch Malay dramas where husbands betray their wives, marry more than one, shout at their wives and beat them. And this is not shocking?



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This one is an older interview, featuring the International Managing Director of Al-Jazeera...
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A balancing point of view



Cindy Tham



Qatar-based Al Jazeera International promises to revolutionise television news in the English-speaking world, offering a balancing perspective on news and issues. The 24-hour news and current affairs channel also promises to live up to the tradition set by its Arabic sister channel Al Jazeera, which has gained its fair share of fame as well as notoriety for refusing to 'sanitise' the gory images of the wars in Afghanistan and Iraq, and for broadcasting video footage allegedly from Osama bin Laden. Al Jazeera International's managing director Nigel Parsons recently looked in on the Kuala Lumpur centre, one of the four high-definition broadcast centres besides Doha, London and Washington DC. The initial plan to begin broadcasting last month, aiming to reach 40 million homes worldwide from day one, has run into some delay. Parsons talks to CINDY THAM about the challenges at hand as the channel gears up to go on air.



theSun: When I last interviewed you, in November last year, Al Jazeera International was supposed to begin broadcasting in April, which was last month. I understand there has been some delay. What's holding it back?


It's a mixture of the building and technological installation. We originally hoped to go on air in late spring. We'd never put an exact date but then, that was always dependent on the building work and the technological installation. I think it is the single most complicated project ever attempted in television in the world.


You mean the high-definition broadcast centres?


It was high-definition, with four centres and all linked by fibre. So it's new software. First, the building work was late. Not a big surprise. If you have ever had a new kitchen fixed, you'd know something's always late. And then, we're waiting for the technological hand-over. So, yeah, there's been some delay. We actually don't think it's particularly important. I think people will judge us by what we produce, and not when we produce it. It's not a huge delay.


And I think to have achieved what we have achieved in a year and a half - to build these four centres and to get them ready for launch, it's phenomenal, it's a huge undertaking - I'm not overly disappointed or overly concerned. I don't think it's a huge issue.


Is the delay in all the four hubs or in specific centres?


The buildings have been a little bit late in all four places. I'm here because the staff are just moving into the new building. Obviously, we have a lot more staff. When I last saw you, we had maybe 10 people and now we've got 60 or 70 and by the time we launch, we'll be nearly 100 here, which is also slightly bigger than we first expected.


It's a few more programming staff, more on the technical and operations side. But we are almost staffed upÉ There's a lot of training under way. Lots of people have been going from here to Doha. We have about 10 people from the office at the moment in Doha doing training on news browse, desktop editing systems, newsroom systems. We're making a lot of paper pilots, we're doing a lot of pre-filming, making documentaries.


Just over the weekend, Al Jazeera International announced the appointment of two weekend presenters at the Kuala Lumpur centre, Divya Gopalan and Hamish MacDonald. They join a team of very seasoned journalists like Sir David Frost, Veronica Pedrosa, Riz Khan. These are all very familiar faces in international news networks. Now, you've said many times before that Al Jazeera International is going to be very different from what we have so far, the CNN, BBC, Sky News. Yet you are relying on a lot of these familiar faces who were trained in or are very accustomed to the conventional TV news that we have been used to. So, how is Al Jazeera International going to be different?


Well, they're joining us for a reason. And, actually, the two people you mentioned as weekend presenters are not internationally known figures. Yes, Veronica is, Teymoor (Nabili) is, but they've joined us for a reason. They've said that they were frustrated previously and the kind of journalism we offer is what they want to do. Veronica, in particular, is very keen on an Asian agenda and an Asian perspective, which is what we offer, which is why we built these four broadcast centres.


I think we are a mix of experiences, and a big part of our philosophy once we get on air is actually to be training local people in the regions where we are, which should offer lots of opportunities for the people here. Just for the launch, we can't go with all inexperienced people. It's too complicated. And the pool of talent just in Malaysia, for example, of people whose written and spoken English and whose television experience is good enough to go on the international stage, it's a big step up. Once we're on air, we will have training programmes, we will be bringing people up to speed.


So we've gone for that mixture. And in the office here, we have employees from China, Indonesia, the Philippines, Singapore, Malaysia, Australia, New Zealand and Korea. So we have a big spread.


And the thing about David Frost is, he's not a member of (the) staff. He's been contracted to make a certain number of programmes over a certain period. It's a once-a-week show. So, yes, he's a big name but that's one show a week. There are lots more besides.


Well, you've said before that Al Jazeera International will be different from the BBC, CNN, otherwise there will be no point in setting it up. So does this mean that with a different outfit, the same journalists could actually present news in a different way?


Well, I would argue strongly that we're not the same journalistsÉ We are based in the Middle East looking out. The Middle East is the world's hot spot. We work very closely with the Arabic channel. We share video, we share planning, we share offices across the world, and we'll have access to all of each other's content...


The example I'll give you this morning - if you look at all the main organisations now - take the Iran nuclear story. Actually no one in the Middle East wants anyone to have any nuclear weapon, at all, ideally. However, when you see that story reported at the moment, it is always, you know, "Iran nuclear threat". That is the angle of the story. If you are sitting in Teheran, in Iran, they're thinking, "Oh, how come Israel can have it, how come India can have it, and we can't?" There's no balance to that story. Pakistan isn't allowed it, India is. Israel is allowed it, Iran isn't.


And actually, if you're sitting in Iran, you know, they are surrounded by potential enemies. They've been invaded more than once over the last 100 years. I don't think they've actually ever invaded anybody else. So, from their perspective, there's a lot of double standards at play. I think we would offer that alternative view. We would turn that around.


And similarly, when we are here in Kuala Lumpur, we are offering viewers an Asian perspective on world events. So I don't think it's fair to say that we are entirely staffed up by people from those organisations. We have across the Middle East, by and large, Arabic staff. You're also forgetting that half the channel is programming and programming is, we are a commissioning house.


We are commissioning local producers everywhere in the world. When we make documentaries here, we are making documentaries with local Asian production houses. Our programme director was here a week ago meeting local production houses. He was very impressed with the standards he came across. So, when you've got a programme like Everywoman or People in Power, the Kuala Lumpur office will be contributing the Asian perspective on any given issue.


That's a very interesting (approach). I mean, if there's one theme and you take one subject, you get contributions from all the different offices, you get to understand that there are four different perspectives or more on these stories. We run a unique commissioning website so that any producer anywhere in the world can pitch an idea to us and if we like it, we'll commission it off the website. So, you know, I strongly disagree with you about just copying the others.


I guess it's because, you know, when you look at the line-up of anchors you have appointed, the first impression one would get is these are people who used to be at the BBC or CNN...


...or Abu Dhabi TV, or Dubai TV, or ...


Right, fair enough.


We have a huge mix but the thing is that we are taking on the heritage of Al Jazeera. We are a sister channel of an existing channel. We have the same code of ethics. We share the same editorial guidelines. We are not a completely different beast. We have a wider world audience that we are aiming at, with a different language, but we are sister channels and we share the same ethos. That's why we will be the authority on the Middle East, helping you understand what's going on there because that's where we are. Even though I'm living there, yes I'm not an Arab, however I'm working with my Arab counterpart. He helps me understand some of what's going on under the surface. And that will be respected.


Are there certain expectations that Al Jazeera the Arabic channel has of Al Jazeera International, because you are a spin-off of that channel? Are there certain standards that are expected of Al Jazeera International and also concerns that because it is staffed by a team of - for lack of a better term - Western journalists and managers, it may be quite different from Al Jazeera?


I think they are legitimate concerns and we are addressing them, those who are already now working on a daily basis with the Arabic channel. There are various team-building, relationship-building initiatives under way... Of course, we are acutely aware that we could damage the brand, if you like. And that's what people are concerned about, I think, on the Arabic side; some, not all. Concerns have been expressed but I can assure you, and we have assured these people who have expressed the concerns, that we are not there to dilute the brand. We are there to take their spirit of journalism to a wider world audience.


There were concerns also that certain words that are loaded with moral or political meaning like jihad have been used by the Arabic channel. I understand that, well you have been reported to have said, that there's a stylebook that Al Jazeera International wants to set up...


Yeah, we are working together, both channels. We will share. There are some words that when you translate from Arabic to English, they have a completely different meaning or they carry a moral judgment. I mean, it's very difficult to use the word "suicide bomber" in Arabic.


There isn't an equivalent or a direct translation?


If you translate it directly, it carries a moral judgment, and as a news organisation, that's not our job... One man's terrorist is another's freedom fighter. Am I going to call him a "terrorist" or am I going to call him a "freedom fighter"? I'm going to find something that does not judge him.


So this is a stylebook that is going to shared by Al Jazeera and Al Jazeera International?


Well, we're working together because if we're going to be in two different languages, we need to understand precisely those kinds of issues. In English, a "suicide bomber" is a suicide bomber. In Arabic, it carries a different meaning altogether. We need to understand that ... maybe we won't use that word in English. We haven't made that call yet. We wouldn't use the word "martyr" either... What do you call the people in Iraq? Do you call them "resistance fighters", do you call them "armed groups", do you call them "insurgents" ... ?


Other than diction, are there other issues that Al Jazeera International would want to put emphasis on, considering how you have critics watching your every move, every word, every footage?


Yeah, we are under close scrutiny, there's no doubt about it. We are aware of it but we're quite confident our journalists will be free, impartial and accurate. What we're after is to connect with the street, if you like, which is what the Arabic channel has so successfully done. They've managed to address the concerns of ordinary people. They are not just following the agenda that's set by the politicians. They are not afraid to ask difficult questions. They don't go out looking deliberately for controversy but they're not frightened of it either.


But the geographic location (of the news organisation) isn't necessarily what would determine one's understanding of the problem. I'm curious, I mean, you don't have to be in Qatar to see that (what's happening in Israel and Palestine).


You don't, you don't. But, clearly, for that particular story and the Iranian story, the headlines you are getting are the politicians' sound bites, and we're saying there is not enough critical analysis of that. There is another side to all of these stories. You don't have to lose your balance, you don't have to lose your accuracy, but there are other sides to the story. You're right, you don't have to be in the Middle East to see that but why isn't it being reported more often from the other side, the other angle. I don't think we're getting a balanced picture at the moment.


So you think Al Jazeera International will be able to fill that gap or vacuum?


Absolutely! That's what we'll do. That's exactly the gap we're going into and we think it's a very good environment for us. We do think this vacuum has been created and it was particularly apparent during the invasion of Iraq. I don't think the major organisations have really recovered from that.


Today is World Press Freedom Day (May 3). You've been in this profession and industry for, oh, more than 30 years... From where you're coming from, how do you think the state of press freedom and the standard of journalism have evolved, or have been affected by international events or influenced by development?


I actually think, from a broadcast perspective, we're not talking about the print media here, I think we're in a fairly difficult time. I think the main broadcasters in the United States have been cowed by this administration. It's almost like the Russian media in the 70s. They're frightened of the administration. The Russian media is still the Russian media in the 70s. They came forward a little bit in the 80s and 90s and now they've gone right back to state control.


That is why it is a good environment for us. I think this word "globalisation" has tended to impact not just trade but also the media. There's this tendency to think we should all have the same standards, you know, one size fits all, the smaller world, et cetera, et cetera. Personally I disagree with that very strongly. I think we should be celebrating our differences and respecting our differences.


And, if you like, Al Jazeera would like to make the world a bigger place again, not a smaller place. We would go against that trend and I think journalists have kind of fallen into that trap, broadcasters in particular, all following each other...


I think it's a very dangerous time for journalists. The casualty rate is just phenomenal. That's an absolute tragedy. People taking huge risks. If you look at the number that has been killed in Iraq, it's just unbelievable. When I was in the field, particularly in conflict zones, journalists did die or get wounded but it tended to be by accident. These days, journalists are targets.


The target groups - decision-makers, professionals, people aged 20 to 35 - these have, according to you (in a past interview) shown particular interest in a channel like Al Jazeera International. What are the concerns that they have and what is it that Al Jazeera International will be able to give them?


I'd probably go back to my earlier answer that there's this disconnect, if you like, that's happening between the political leaders and the people on the street. It's reflected across the world and voting figures really, particularly in the Western world. I think people will watch us because we will be revolutionising viewer choice and offering up a different menu. There's a strong feeling at the moment that they're not getting the whole story. I think we'll have a big curiosity turn-on because of that and hopefully they will stay with us when they see the product.



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And this is what really sparks my courage to speak up...
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Dialogue of civilisations




INTERNATIONALLY known intellectual and social activist Dr Chandra Muzaffar, who celebrated his 59th birthday recently, believes that people, especially the more erudite among the middle class, should speak up on issues currently confronting the nation. They should not leave completely to the politicians the course this nation should take. Kedah-born Chandra is still as committed to the cause of social justice as he was when as a young academician three decades ago he founded Aliran. He remained its guiding light until 1992 when left to form JUST, the International Movement for a Just World. He left the academic world when his contract as professor-cum-director at the Centre for Civilizational Dialogue, University of Malaya, was not renewed. There was a politically vocal middle class once but now it is by and large tame and timid, the former academician told ZAINON AHMAD and MARIA J. DASS.


theSun: You have been a social activist for a long time, first in Aliran for one and a half decades and since 1992 as Just president. You were an academician as well but now you are a full-time social activist. Why?


I could have taken a different path. I could have been an academic, and not involved in social issues in social issues. A lot of academics are not involved in social issues, but I don't think I would have been happy. As an academic if you have had the good fortune of acquiring a certain level of education, if you have accumulated a certain quantum of knowledge, I think you should ensure that that knowledge is used to serve society, especially if you are in the social sciences where you are trained to think about society's challenges - if you don't use that training for a larger purpose then I don't think you have fulfilled your role.


The other reason why I've always had the urge to commit myself is because of certain instances in my own past. It may have something to do with the fact that my own father was a very public-spirited person. He established the first English school in Bidong, Kedah, set up a home for the destitute and at the same time he ran the local council there. And that made an impact on me.


Now the other elements from my own background was the fact that I was stricken with polio at the age of four and it made me very sensitive to human suffering wanting to do what one could to eliminate human suffering.


Politicians did not like you very much when you were in Aliran. You openly criticised government policies. Former PM Tun Mahathir Mohamad was one of those who took exception to your criticism of him that during the 1986 general elections he said if you wanted to criticise the government then you must enter politics. But you were not intimidated and continued to speak up. Do you think that was one reason why you were arrested in Operation Lallang?


I see Operasi Lallang introspectively as a move by the government - the Mahathir leadership - to ensure that the expanding middle class would not become too independent in its thinking. Of the 180 people who were arrested under Operasi Lallang, quite a lot of them were from professional and academic backgrounds. And I would interpret Operasi Lallang, apart from its other aims, it may have been prompted by the internal politics in Umno, the Umno election of 1987 where there was team A and team B and things that were very much in the public arena then like the Chinese schools issue and so on. But you also have an increasingly vocal middle class, they are the ones who attend Aliran functions and the functions of other NGOs and the middle class was just beginning to assert their independence, think for themselves - the power to be part of politics. This is what I call citizens politics. It is different from party politics - you don't have to be a member of a political party to stand for elections. As citizens they have a right to be concerned with what's happening to the country and this is what we were doing.


So citizens politics was beginning to grow and develop and people were becoming more and more concerned about issues and speaking up, and at that moment in time Operasi Lallang was a way of stopping the growth of an independent, autonomous, thinking society.


But this autonomous middle class - does it exist now?


A: I don't think so. I think our middle class intelligensia here is still weak. In terms of numbers, we have a big middle class but a lot of people don't speak up. And the sort of activism we see in other countries and even our neighbours with middle class communities which in proportional terms are smaller than our middle class in Malaysia, but we find that they have is much greater activism in some of these societies compared to Malaysia.


Why do you think this is so? Why don't people speak up for instance or indulge in public debate on government policies.


Operasi Lallang is one of the reasons. There are other reasons which I think are more important. We are ethnically divided. It's one of the reasons why we haven't been able to crystalise that sort of middle class which has that sort of commitment to democratic values, egalitarian values and so on. It's partly because we are ethnically divided.


Maybe also because we are fairly properous?


Yes, that too. We are fairly prosperous and when you have a prosperous middle class which at the same time does not have a certain intellectual history behind it, they don't have a certain tradition of dissent, of speaking up, they don't have such values and you have all this prosperity around you ... I suppose you are lulled into complacency and that's what happened to our middle class. Our prosperity has played a role, our ethnic situation has played a role and the absence of a certain history has actually created a situation which confronts us today - a middle class which is by and large tame and timid.


Many people were quite surprised when you entered politics. Would you rather forget those years when you were in it?


I entered party politics - I distinguish party politics from citizens politics - largely because of the situation which confronted the nation at that time. We had an extraordinary situation in 1998. A situation a lot of us felt that the fundamental institutions of governments were under threat. By which I mean institutions such as the judiciary, the police, the media - the way in which all these institutions were harnessed to serve a particular purpose related to the sacking of the deputy prime minister, and there was a response from a segment of the general public who responded to the situation with demonstrations ... people felt that something was wrong. We've been talking all about injustices, accountability, freedom of expression and then you hear people are beginning to speak up. And if you don't respond you would not have lived up their expectation, you would have in a sense betrayed the people, so you have to respond to that situation.


So what happened to myself and a number of others was not unusual. We were just responding to that situation.


I was there for two and a half years - in party politics - and I learnt things about politics which I didn't learn in political science course in the universities (laughs). When you join a party, you learn a few things about politics while you are there in the arena - you learn a lot of things -things that you may not be aware of if you didn't join politics.


And you didn't like that?


No, I didn't like that. We've always known that in politics you are more concerned with power than anything else, but I think you have to get into the ring to see what it really means - this obsession with power. It's actually the major preoccupation of politicians, it's not the ideals which they spout from time to time ... their real obsession is power, and I thinks it is very difficult to hold down certain principals in party politics. You have to compromise all the while, you have to adjust to various situations and you have to be very, very partisan in your outlook...but sometimes by becoming overly partisan you become unjust to the realities, the truth as you see it.


You want to articulate the truth but you can't, because you got a partisan position to take. And you have to adhere to that partisan position, this I think is part of the problem where you have to be very, very partisan to a point where you sacrifice truth.


At the same time you have to compromise on your principals, you can't run away from that. All the while you have to make compromises in party politics.


If you want to survive you have to be like the others. You've have to make power your central goal.you can't be talking about idealistic principals and so on it's power.


But don't you think you need to get power first before you could implement your ideas and goals?


That's true. Unless one gets into party politics, unless you are part of that game where you acquire power, you will not be able to bring about certain changes. I suppose that is sort of a dilemma you would like someone else to grapple with.


If you were asked to write a book on Dr Mahathir maybe ten years from now, how would your evaluation of him be like?


Any evaluation of Dr Mahathir like an evaluation of any leader who has made a very big impact on society should be balanced and not for or against him. You have to take into account his strengths, his weaknesses you have to be balanced to convince people that it is a sort of evaluation which is not motivated by bias, because the reality is that there are good things he has done for the country which one cannot ignore and there are also things which have happened that one could define as negative. So it will be a balanced evaluation if I would have to do an evaluation in ten years' time.


He was big on infrastructure, wasn't he?


Yes. I would certainly acknowledge what he has done for infrastructure development of the country which has been an important contribution to people's well being. The roads, the ports the infrastructure development was remarkable.


He's also helped to bring about certain transformations to society like the expansion and the strengthening of the middle class under his tutelage. At the same time you see the growth of the Malay middle class. If you look at the situation in the 60's and 70's, it's a tremendous achievement and it has helped assimilation in the country. Because if a very big segment of the Malay community had remained poor, I don't think there would have been inter-ethnic peace or harmony in our country. That sort of transformation, I think is very important and Dr Mahathir pushed very hard for it. His foreign policy was also studious and staid in a sense that he was always very conscious of our independence and sovereignty at a time when the global situation had become less hospitable to that sort of attempt to maintain our independence and sovereignty.


Almost 10 - 12 years into his stewardship the Soviet Union collapsed, the Cold War had come to an end and we had a unipolar world and politics. Most countries have succumbed to unipolar politics, but Malaysia had succeeded in keeping its independence and voicing out its opinions on what is happening in the world - whether on Bosnia, Palestine, Iraq and that has been remarkable.


He has also the man who was partly responsible for the expansion of Asean ---- as an entity that covered the entire region. It was also quite an achievement, because despite certain weaknesses in governments like Myanmar you cannot run away from the fact that a regional entity that encompasses the whole of South East Asia, is an achievement and it has given strength and identity to the region.


What were those things he did you would define as negative?


On the negative side, we should be concerned with the growth of corruption. During his tenure - corruption had become more serious. He may have been concerned of corruption but I don't think there were any sort of concrete measures he took to fight corruption. We should be concerned also with the emasculation of the judiciary and obliterating of the media the and other institutions which are important for any democratic country. Parliament was also very much under the thumb of the executive. We had overwhelming executive dominance during his stewardship, and while we were able to operate society, groups and so on these were under the sufferance of the powers that be. So I think that this was something we are not very happy about.


If you look at the economic side, yes infrastructure development was good but don't forget that the income inequities in this country is also quite serious.


Malaysia has one of the worst income inequities in the Asia Pacific region between people right at the top and those of the bottom.


Of course we have reduced absolute poverty which is good --- official figure is about 5%, maybe more --- but whatever it is, the real challenge is not absolute poverty, it's relative poverty and that's the real challenge. In other words people who can make ends meet and so on but given the situation today, you have what I like to describe as a growing gap between the have-a-lots and the have-a-little. It's not have and have-nots. This gap has grown over the last 10 to 15 years and that's serious and that's something that was not attended to.


What about ethic relations under him?


Because of a certain degree of economic success we had managed to blunt some of the sharper edges in relations between communities, but at the same time we cannot deny that we are still a very divided nation. People still operate very much within their own little ethnic cocoons whether it is politics, economics, education --- you see this everywhere.


You talked about the overwhelming executive power. Do you think there are signs that the present government is gradually dismantling this?


Well there is more openness now, we have more vocal parliament - if you look at the back- benchers they speak up much more, the media too has given some attention to investigative journalism if you look at what TV3 does, and the newspapers also attempt to expose wrong doing. I think bureaucracy too is fast to respond to some of the complaints from the general public. This is what makes the government more accountable and these are the positive changes over the last two and a half years.


Having said that I think the Malaysian public has every right to be disappointed. The pace of change has been slow, elite corruption is still a challenge and though there is a certain degree of freedom where the media is concerned, I don't think they dare to investigate certain cases --- it's something which will not happen.


I supposed there are problems even now and ethnic relations I don't have become any worse but I don't think it has improved either, there are more challenges -- polarisations, people adopting a very communal position and seeing challenges from within their own sectarian ethnic perspective. And justice is seen through the prism of a particular community and interpreted of course by the opinionated.


You are involved in civilisational dialogue than when you were at the Centre for Civilisational Dialouge --- with more passion in fact. Do you think you can make the difference?


One has to continue to dialogue, one has to continue to engage the other. One has to continue to continue to get rid of prejudices, stereotypes which colour and condition relations between civilizations, cultures and so on.


You have to continue to find common ground, you have to continue to articulate shared values. It is important because you have to realize that this is one human family, you can't run away from that. I'm talking of a human family in a global sense. A common humanity, it's a challenge which is going to last for a long, long while.


It's going to take generations to arrive at this point. To instil that this common human identity of ours is far more important than individual, or community, or militant or nationality, but this common human identity is what really counts.


That is what civilisational dialogue is all about --- an attempt to reach that point.


In view of all this talk about clashes of civilizations and what the religious zealots and extremists are doing, don't you think that is tough going?


It is. No way one is going to see it in one's lifetime, and all that what we can do is to make a small, modest contribution towards this process of building bridges.


It's going to be very, very difficult and what is made difficult and this challenge has been there for a while. You cannot have meaningful interaction between cultures, communities, civilisations if there's no respect, if you don't recognise the other as your equal. The whole concept of the other it can be cultural, can be religious, can be linguistics, can be civilisation, but you must be prepared to respect the other you must be prepared to see the other as your equal.


That is not possible in a situation where there is asymmetric power, that is so overwhelming at this point.


Please explain.


If you look at the global situation you will find that there is a small elite not confined to any particular country, that dominates and rules the world. These are the rulers of the world. So how can you have a dialogue in a situation where you have this coterie, this elite right at the helm and the rest of us (the whole of humanity) is at their mercy. You can't really have a dialogue.


It reminds me of what Tolstoy, the Russian philosopher, said: "I sit on a person's back and I want all that is good for him. I'll do everything to help him except get off his back". You can't possibly have a dialogue in that sort of situation --- when you're sitting on someone's back. You have to have a dialogue of equals.


But that doesn't mean that one should not continue to dialogue just because you have an unequal situation. You have to go on talking, persuading and showing what the situation is like. You just have to continue.




Coping with a troubled world


theSun: After the Sept 11 incident, Muslims seem to be under siege. It seems Muslims everywhere are reeling from the onslaught of this war on terror. Why do you think they are not rallying and fighting back? Is it for lack of leadership?


I think there are two questions here, one is Muslims under siege. I think it's true. It's something that's real. We're not talking of a situation where Muslims are perceived to be under siege. It is real in a sense that we are part of this global system that we talked about a while ago - which is very unequal and they see certain things happening that convince them that the whole system is against them.


You look at Palestine for instance. Palestinians had their own land taken over by someone else, they've been expelled from their land, killed and persecuted. They are under siege in that sense.


Look at Iraq - invaded, occupied so they feel under siege. Look at Afghanistan and look at the way Muslim minorities are harmed and harassed in different parts of the world and how they become the target as it were of hegemonic power that dominates the globe. Muslims feel that they are not treated well and they are marginalised.



But why don't they respond?


Now if you say that Muslims are not responding to this challenge that is not altogether true. There is a response, except it is the sort of response that we are not comfortable with.


Al Qaeda is responding, Osama is responding to this challenge. If you look at the birth of Al Qaeda, when did Al Qaeda come into being?


It came into being after the US set up bases in Saudi Arabia, this is when Al Qaeda announced to the world that it was going to fight the United States of America. This was after the US bases in Dhahran, Saudi Arabia - and you know that one of the first strikes was the Dhahran air base.


So the Al Qaeda responded, Osama's response is also through violence, because as far as they are concerned there is no other way.


It was hopeless. So if you want to liberate your land, if you want to push out the invader you just have to fight, you have to resort to violence. But we know violence is not the solution, because violence begets violence. ClichĹ˝ maybe, but its true. It's something that should not be ignored.


Even from a strategic perspective the sort of violence that Al Qaeda is engaged in offers them hope in the short term or the long run. If you look at Sept 11, if it is Al Qaeda which is responsible for Sept 11. They decide to destroy a symbol of American global power, economic power and the symbol of global military power (the Pentagon), they killed almost 3,000 people but what have they accomplished?



They got their short thrill but it is the US which benefitted the most.


Yes. As a result of Sept 11, the US managed to topple the Taliban regime, but even more significant after toppling the Taliban regime they extended their tentacles over the entire Central Asian region - the five Central Asian republics. They've got bases in two of them today and they have agreements with all countries in that region. The US wanted an oil and gas pipe line from a Central Asian republic to a white water port. They couldn't do this when the Taliban was there but now they have succeeded in getting this done.


That's as far as Afghanistan is concerned. They accomplished this after Sept 11 and in other words expanded their military growth.


If you look at Iraq, again using the war on terror and weapons of mass destruction which is linked to terror and all that, they go to Iraq and invade and occupy Iraq - the world's second biggest oil exporter and as a result of controlling Iraq they also control another vital resource in the middle east that becomes more important in the future- water.


Iraq, one country which has the richest water resource in the entire region, they control that. It is expected that future wars will be over water. If you look at the strategic location of Iraq in Central and West Asia, it's a very strategic country.


The conservative government in Washington argue that water is very important as far as their attempt to re-do the map of the Middle East is concerned, which is what they are trying to do, which has given them an excuse to move into Iraq, re-do the map of the Middle East as a result of what you had done.


Sept 11 gave them the perfect excuse - that the US is under threat of being attacked, so we have protect ourselves from terrorists, from people who want to destroy our way of life - this is the rhetoric, this is the political propaganda they use.


They are able to use this rhetoric because of the foolish actions of people like Osama who have given them an excuse to expand their empire.


There's no doubt at all that the war on terror has become a very convenient excuse to expand their empire.



Even nearer home. Straits of Malacca, for instance. The Philippines, which once chased them out, have welcomed them back.


Yes, their war on terror has been expanded to the Straits of Malacca, except that the littoral states - two of them at least - Malaysia and Indonesia have been resistant, but they want control over the Straits of Malacca.


They returned to the Southern Philippines after Sept 11. They were forced out of Clark airbase after the fall of Marcos, but now they have returned. Again post Sept 11.


So if you look back at all the moves in various places, the war on terror has become a very, very convenient excuse for expanding the tentacles of the empire. That's why I think that in some respects Al Qaeda and the others have been very, very foolish.



What about the inability of other Muslims to respond?


I think this is very important, in a situation where you have one type of response - a response presented by Osama; other Muslims who are not happy with this should turn to their governments and say what is your response. Are you standing up? Are you speaking up? Are you getting together? Mobilising your resources and strengths? Are you saying that we won't allow certain things? That's not happening.


That's because I think a number of Muslim governments are very close to the empire builders and they are a part of the empire. This is what a lot of Muslims don' t realise - that they also helped to facilitate the expansion of the empire.


Let's ask ourselves very simple questions, would the invasion of Iraq have taken place without the support of some of Iraq's neighbours. They allow their airbases and territories to be used.


You know that they have these elites in the Gulf region and elsewhere - they have colluded with the empire builders.


So for a lot of Muslims this is something which has caused a great amount of disillusionment with their leaders, that their leaders don't stand out, in fact they help to oppress the masses of this world, through their collusion with the empire builders. This is why some of the militant groups are not only targeting Washington, London or Tel Aviv, they are also targeting their own governments and they make no bones about it.


So this is part of the problem. If you are looking for leadership from other segments of the ummah - I don't see any leadership. The absence of the leadership I think has contributed to the situation that we are in. It has exacerbated the crisis. The absence of leadership that can use democratic channels, to be able to negotiate and use diplomacy to bring about some changes.


Now I'm not saying that if there were these approaches, changes would take place. In fact there will be people that argue that if you look at what the international institutions have become, even if you use these channels there is no hope of change taking place.


If you look at the United Nations (UN) after 60 years, attempts to reform the UN didn't work.


We have talked about reforms when the UN was 50 years old, 60 years old we talked about reforms - nothing had happened.


Basic power structure remains the same - security council, veto, dominance of the powerful, the 10% veto being ineffective.


Look at other institutions related to the UN - the World Bank. Since the 1998 financial crisis in the region people have been talking about financial architecture - not a single reform has taken place after 1998.


World Bank's fundamental role is to eradicate global poverty but the World bank has not been successful in this. In fact it has contributed to poverty in some instances.


Nothing has happened. Look at the WTO (World Trade Organisation), look at the difficulties of negotiating a global trade agreement, the Doha rounds - it's still going on. You look at all the international institutions, look at attempts to curb nuclear weapons - total failure, no progress, nothing.


Every institution that we look at the situation is not hopeful. Which is what makes one very, very pessimistic about the future because if these institutions don't work, then you are just strengthening the militants because they assume nothing works at the global level.


We should not allow this sort of situation to develop, because what is going to happen is that you have these militants on one hand and you have others that also use violence and terror - meaning the global hegemonic powers will also use violence and terror as in the case of Iraq. So you have two forces pitted against each other. Both believe that violence is the only way. You conquer and then you respond to that conquest also with violence. This will only lead the world to its destruction.



The situation in Iran, which is standing up to the Americans. Could it also end up like Iraq?


The situation in Iraq is very, very bad. The situation is very, very difficult in Iraq. This I think will dissuade the US from trying anything in Iran. Don't forget that 60% of the Muslims in Iran are Shi'ite. Now if you move against Iran, it will inflame passions in Iraq and the Shi'ite population - because of their supreme spiritual leader Ayatollah Sistani. He has been able to hold them back up to this point. In fact they have cooperated with the US. As far as the occupation is concerned it is the Sunnis that have been resisting the occupation. But if the US invades Iran then I think the Shi'ite population in Iraq will respond.


There are many other factors, because Iran is different from Iraq - in terms of nuclear facilities and camouflage, I think they are much better than Iraq. In 1981 Israel destroyed the nuclear reactor in Iraq in a unilateral strike.


Nonetheless if you believe in world domination, if you are the type that has been miscalculating all the while, you can miscalculate again and go to war in Iran - it can happen.


This is also where the Iranian leadership can be more strategic in its response, meaning they should look at the situation carefully and see what is possible, what it can do, what its long-term gains would be.


Iran in some ways has done fairly well in strengthening its position in the region and if you look at what has happened in Iraq, what has happened in Lebanon, what has happened in Afghanistan, in all these countries you will find that the Shi'ite segment of society which was oppressed and suppressed in one way or the other, they have re-emerged. Iraq is one example as a result of the fall of Saddam. In the case of Lebanon you will find that the Shi'ites have become a very, very important factor now, because it was the Shi'ites under the Hezbollah that succeeded in defeating the Israeli army in certain parts of Lebanon and they have become politically very important.


In Afghanistan with the fall of the Taliban - the Taliban oppressed the Shi'ites - you find the Shi'ites have a role in Afghan politics. So the Shi'ite factor has re-emerged and this favours Iran. So Iran has to think about all of this rather than gauge the situation where there is a war and Iran is pulverised, even if you are no pulverised you pay the price in one way or another if there is a war. So I think Iran should avoid a military confrontation.


That's where I think wisdom and strategy become more important than just sort of a reactive approach.



In the case of the caricatures of Prophet Muhammad published by the Danish newspapers. Do you think Muslims over-reacted?


One should not be surprised that Muslims reacted because of their love for the Prophet which is deep and profound as far as Muslims are concerned. This is something Muslims - doesn't matter what their school of thought or community is - their love is profound.


But the reaction in some parts of the Muslim world to my mind merely helped to reinforce the stereotypes about Muslims. Why do I say this? Because they reacted in a violent manner. If the purpose of the cartoons was to depict Islam as a violent religion - because way the Prophet was depicted - but by reacting in a violent manner, you are just reinforcing the stereotypes. I think it was very foolish to react in that manner. I remember telling people at a meeting in Doha, right in the midst of this cartoon crisis a few weeks ago that maybe when the Danish imams first responded to the cartoons at the end of 2005. What they should have done is to say, hey look these cartoons ... you talk of freedom of expression ... we demand media space to respond to what you have done.


Write to this newspaper, other Danish newspapers and maybe other papers in Europe, explaining why Muslims feel this way about the Prophet and why this depiction of the Prophet as the head of a violent religion is a travesty of justice. We should explain why this is a travesty of justice. It's so easy to explain. Look at the whole history of Islam. Look at the history and life of the Prophet himself - how he responded to taunts, insults and attacks - physical attacks upon his person.


Outside Mecca once he was taunted and assaulted, but he refused to react. This was the mark of a human being and this is something people should understand. You want to defend the honour of the Prophet but you are not prepared to emulate the Prophet. This is so wrong. The way some of them reacted was wrong. There are other ways to respond to insults of this sort. Why does one have to be so violent, at least some of them. I want to emphasise that a lot of Muslims also reacted in a very rational way but there were also Muslims who reacted in a very irrational manner.



There seems to be a lot of signs of ethnic tensions in our country. Why do you think this is happening?


Tensions I suppose one could classify into two categories, one is tensions which are the product of specific instances, like what we see now, tensions of that sort. Number two is what we should be more concerned about - tensions which are manifestations of deep-seated problems between communities.


Now some of the incidents, episodes over the last few weeks and months related to the way in which Islam is perceived by certain circles, Muslims and non-Muslims looking at Islam in a certain way. I think this has contributed to it. Which I think really underscores the importance of developing a better understanding of each other's religion and culture. Indepth understanding of one another - this has not happened at all in our country. We have remained - this is a cliche that I have used for a very long time - a nation of strangers.


We know a few things about each other's culture, religion but in-depth understanding is not there and this I think has to be developed. For instance Syariah law, because this has been at the centre of some of the incidents of late. Let's look at the non-Muslim reaction to Syariah. We're not talking about masses. We're talking about lawyers, professionals, academics and others - there is a knee jerk reaction against the Syariah among non-Muslims in this country. When you mention Syariah - oh! it's wrong! it's bad! cannot have the Syariah! and so on. I think one needs to be a little more balanced in one's approach. One needs to say let's find out what this is all about. A lot of non-Muslim lawyers in this country for instance know nothing about the Syariah and yet they tend to react all the while to the Syariah without understanding.


This is to my mind a good example of legal illiteracy as far as a system of law is concerned. The Syariah has got a very long history behind it and it is something that has evolved over time. There are some wonderful principles in the Syariah if you look at it in-depth - almost every area of life.


So among the educated we don't have such a balanced view. With civil law there may be some differences or similarities - let's try to understand. Now that's one side.


On the Muslim side, you find a lot of Muslim professionals and their response to Syariah is that it is divine law. You must not forget that 90% of Syariah is a product of historic evolution. It is made by human beings over a period of time, by great jurists who in their historical context looked at certain principles and tried to understand. Because I find that the laws they made and edicts they came out with, the rules that they produced was their attempt to apply their minds to their setting - over a long period of time.


What we call Fiqh (jurisprudence) in Islam is a product of evolution. It is the roots of the Syariah that are in the Quran which one would regard as divine. Certain underlying principles and values in the Quran pertaining to human conduct which one would regard as divine, but not all the rules and regulations that were developed over a long period of time.


So I think Muslims must also approach the Syariah in a more evaluative manner and look at it in terms of its strengths. Syariah as it applies to the 21st century - what is it that you can apply today, what is it that you can't apply today - there should be that sort of attitude that one doesn't see amongst the Muslims in this country. You have sort of a blind, unthinking approach on one side, and you have a knee jerk reaction on the other and this doesn't help ethnic relations.


It's not the episodes from time to time that concerns me - these are merely part of the symptoms. I think what really concerns me is that as religion impacts more and more upon daily life - and it's going to happen. Way back in the early 80's when I wrote a book about the signs of Islamic resurgence in Malaysia, I said in that book that religion was going to become a major new divider in our society in the future. This is why it is going to happen. As religion becomes more and more important people are going to coalesce on religion. If you don't have an enlightened approach towards religion then imagine what the consequences will be in a society like ours and I think this is what is happening. That religion is becoming more and more important not just in this country but also all around the world.


In Malaysia we know why it has become a more important identity marker because if you look at the Malay community, in 60's it was language but as the 70's and 80's unfolded religion had become a more important identity marker. Why? Because the Malay language had become more of a common language.


So religion has become an identity marker and this is why you find more and more issues related to religion. When we talk to ethnic polarisation - people not mixing with one another, Muslim kids not going to non-Muslim homes, non-Muslim kids not going to Muslim homes, ethic relations and so on.


Many of these issues are related to what I regard as a superficial understanding of religion. The problem is not with religion as such but the way you understand religion. That Islam does not prohibit people from interacting with one another. It does not prohibit people from establishing close bonds with people who are from a different religion.



All the more reason why we should have interfaith dialogues. Doesn't Islam encourage this?


Of course it does. In fact if you look at the history, this is the first religion in history to have encouraged interfaith dialogue.


The first major work on interfaith dialogue was was written by a Muslim by the name of Al-Biruni who died in 1051. Very famous thinker who wrote this classic work called kitab Al-Hindh which was on Hinduism. One of the things he said in that book was that you must put yourself in the shoes of the other person to understand about his religion É, which is a profound statement and he made out various principles of interfaith interaction. If you look at the first encyclopaedia of religions, it is also an encyclopaedia produced by a Muslim known as As-Shahrastani who lived in the 12th century. He was one of the first persons to write an encyclopaedia on religions. It also discussed the Buddha and Buddhism with a great deal of understanding and objectivity. He probed the five precepts - the Panchasila and the 10 precepts the Dashasila.


Look at the openness, but today you find that Muslims are afraid of dialogue, they are afraid of interactions, which is the Islamic heritage. In terms of dialogue, interaction, understanding and so on things have changed greatly, which is a pity. In our society it's because we are a stature and identity based society - a society that is so preoccupied with ethnic identity. It is something that permeates our entire society. This is the problem. You can only transcend that if you begin to see the other as also a human being like you and if you begin to understand this common bond which is the sort of understanding they had at that time.



What of our efforts at interfaith dialogue?


I think that the people who pushed for the idea also bungled. I think that it is an idea which is important. This country of all countries should be at the forefront of interfaith dialogue and interaction. In fact, if I may mention - Muslims that really know Islam are not afraid of interfaith dialogue. The former president of Iran Mohammed Khatami had set up an international institute for the dialogue of cultures and civilisations after he finished his term as president. It had a centre in Tehran before and now he decided to set up an international centre for the dialogue of culture and civilisations and he has asked me to be member of the governing council. This will be based in Tehran.


I feel that our society, multiracial and multireligious, should take the lead in these kinds of things, but we have failed. And others like Iran which is 98% Muslim, you have a president who is actually a distinguished scholar and philosopher, who sees the importance of this sort of dialogue and understanding. It is not just getting to know one another, it is understanding humanity and feeling that there is a common human bond and that is what dialogue is all about.

Thursday, May 25, 2006

A corrupted judgement...

For Malaysian who read about the Jasin MP who used his influence/power ans asked the Custom Department to "close an eye" on an unlawful consignment of inported logs, The Sun reported that he's going to be questioned by a panel of 4 people from the Cabinet... Unfortunately, look at the members of the panel:

Head : Najib Tun Razak (a womaniser)
Panel 1 : Chan Kong choy (no comment on him, yet)
Panel 2 : Nazri Aziz (after his statement about BN MPs cannot support any motion by Opposition MPs, I swear he's nowhere near "integrity")
Panel 3 : Samy Vellu (the logest serving, well-known corrupt)

Great... A bunch of corrupts questioning another corrupt... I bet the Jasin MP was laughing his ass off when he knew who the panels are going to be... I'm sure that people would be happier if the panel was made off neutral, non-MP members...

Which makes me wonder; Does Pak Lah meant what he said, when he made the statement that he's going to uphold integrity... I sure hope he's not sugar-coating his speech...

Monday, May 22, 2006

Piccies :p...

Here's some of the pics I managed to scan from a fellow archer... Others will be posted once I got my hands on them...



Trying to find the "feeling"... Konna kanji desu... Ehto, donna kanji ka na?... =.=;;...





Yosh, got the "feeling"... Now, aiiiiiimmmmm~~~...





FIRE!!!~~~... ... ... ... *silence*... Eh, where did the arrow go, ah?... Haih, that's the trouble when you have a rabun archer >.<;;...

Saturday, May 20, 2006

MASUM rants and groans...

Okay, as promised here's the update on my archery adventure, representing the university you'd love to hate (UIA) on MASUM '06... Sorry, no picture... ... ... Yet :p...

We arrived at UITM on Thursday, and were lodged at one of the female housing college (which, during one of my early strolling, happened to STILL have some female inhabitants)... It's kinda shocking to see how "open" UITM towards free mingling between the opposite sex (and perhaps, the same sex)... But being the typical Ismat, got over it in no time :p...

Us 2 and a half guys decided to survey our battleground, the UITM stadium, and perhaps have an early training... We were later joined by the girls... Much to our dismay, the shooting ground is not even prepared yet, and there's a big chance that the tournament is being postponed without our knowledge... We asked whether there is a shooting range available for us to start practice, which of course they do... Problem is, we have no idea where on UITM is the place -.-"... On top of that, the weather is just not on our side; it rained as heavy as you can imagine 15 minutes after we were back in our rooms... Haih...

The next day, we went to MSN Sports Complex at Keramat for training, and it's clear enough that we have improved a lot... Kak Aisah, our coach, gave some tips and advices, and reminded us to take the tournament as an exposure towards greater level of tournaments...

Saturday marks the beginning of the battle... No real battles yet, since we were just "target-practicing", or in archery term, sighters... Only managed to have it for half day, since, like I said before, the weather is not on our side for the time being...

Sunday, and the battle starts... All of us archers had to shoot 144 arrows for 4 distances: 90m (male), 70m (male n female), 60m (female), 50m (male n female), and 30m (male n female)... It was damn tiring, and yours truley here got trouble finding his "form" for the first 2 distances... A combination of mismatched equipments (will explain later) and windy range was believed to be the cause... Come evening, I managed to get a grip on myself, and landed on number 18 (or was it 19) overall... And for staying under the scorching sun for the whole day, the already hitam legam writer here got even darker than the darkest night (will tell about a funny story related later)... Kak Aisah told us to get a good rest, and Encik Ismail, her boss, told us not to take spicy food (whice we gracefully ate later that night XD)...

Monday, last day of the tournament (for archery, that is)... First of all, Individuals Olimpic Round... All the players, save the captain and 1-2 of the girls managed to fight it out twards the semi-finals, captain lost at quarter finals... Next is the Team Event Olimpic Round... Our first rival was USM... The sure underestimated us a lot, since we were using aluminium arrows... UIA's archers were yours truly, the captain, and our "Abang Long", 26-year old Azril... We beat the crap out of USM in all 3 rounds XD... Next on the list was UPM... They treated us with respect, we were fighting almost with an even footing (minus the arrows), until yours truly lost his grip again, and we lost by 20 points... Nonetheless, we landed on the 4th place for team event, which according to the captain, was not bad at all, considering we were all (minus the captain) newbies, and were competing with mismatched equipments...

Went back to our respective rooms, start packing, and yours truly starts to fall ill (and still not well while typing this post)...

Back home, I got news that we were mistreated by the UIA Sports Officials... Consider this:
UM players got RM150 for the span of 3 days as allowances,
UITM got a lump sum of RM800 as allowances,
UIAM gave its athletes a meager RM45 for 3 days (UM got more for 1 day)

KUIM offered RM500 for each medal won, regardless whether it's gold, silver, or gangsa (I forgot the term in English <.<)
UIAM refused to give any incentives for medals won... The most they can offer are the jerseys...

What a letdown... Here we are, UIAM students, sacrificing our time and efforts, only to find out that our efforts meant nothing...

INFO ON ARCHERY
If you guys got interested about archery, here's a list of links you can visit if you want to:
http://www.yale.edu/archery/about.html
http://homepage.ntlworld.com/joetapley/ (A very nice site, explaining the physics of archery...)
http://www.kyudo.com/asahiam-intro.html (Japanese Archery...)
http://www.strictlybowhunting.com/Anov01issue/carbon_vs_alluminum.htm (Explaination on why we lost...)
http://homepage.ntlworld.com/joetapley/target.htm

Funny story after archery
Remember I mentioned about being darker?... Some of the students were collecting donations room-to-room... They came to mine, and to my feverish confusion, start talking in English... At first I thought they were high on English, but then I realised: They thought I was an International/Overseas student (WTF *sweats*)... Once they finished explaining their objectives, I told them, "Bahase Melayu pon takpe"... Oh, the joy of seeing their expression... And as I went to get my money, I heard one of them said, "Serious, aku ingatkan foreigner tadi"... Tell me, should I get furious, or should I be proud?...

Ihab's singing clip
http://www.savefile.com/files/2242136 Here it is...

Okay, that's all for now... PLEASE VISIT MY BLOG MORE TT__TT...

Thursday, May 18, 2006

Something to tickle your funny bone...

No updates for MASUM yet... But here's something to compensate for the wait :p...

Go to this site www.thesurrealist.co.uk/slogan.cgi and enter your name in the box then hit the Sloganize button. DON'T CHEAT, KEEP THE FIRST ONE THEY GIVE YOU.

1. Ben- "Better ingredients, better Ben."
2. Laura-"Aaahh, Laura!"
3. Gary - "Nobody Better Lay a Finger on my Gary." beat that!
4. Hannah - "When You Get Bored, Call For Hannah"Yess Beat THAT!
5. Ruby-"Loneliness is a Pleasure."
6.Raffi-"You can do it when you Raffi it".
7. Eliza-"sharing the Eliza of your life"
8. James- "Gives A Meal James-Appeal"
9. Hanna- "Break Me Off a Piece of That Hanna".
10.ben - "FOR A HARD EARNED THIRST, BEN." (haha)
11.Caitlin-"Try Caitlin, you'll LIKE IT...!!"
12.Tara- "Probably the best tara in the world"
13. Carl-"See the Face You Love Light Up With Carl.????????????"
14. Witney - "Stimulation for body & Witney!"
15. Beau - "Get Serious. Get Beau."
16. Grimm - "Tell Them About The Grimm, Mummy." [[hahahaha]]
17. Trev - "Trev. Australian For Beer."(how did they know?)
18. Julian- "Shake the bottle, wake the Julian." (hhahahahaa)
19.Jessica- "Loves the Jessica you hate."
20. Jackie - "We Don't Make Jackie. We Make Jackie Better." (hell yeah! lol)
21. Erin - "An Erin Works Wonders" (She sure does!!!! )
22. Scott- "If only everything in life was reliable as a scott- i think it's broken."
23. Kat - "Get the door - its Kat" (man, how boring is mine!!)
24.Michelle-"Beware Of Expensive Michelle!" ( LoL i'm expensive?)
25. Celeste- "Once you pop,u cant stop CELESTE"..Hahaha
26. Teri- Four Out Of Five Dentists Recommended Teri... ((for what actually??))
27. Jason - "Jason- It does a body good"... hahaha.. makes me sound like im a sex toy or sumthing.. LOL
28. shurl - "do u eat the shurl last".. am i dat tasty?? hahaha
28 frank - Hand-Built by Frank....huh??
29 ahmad redzwan-the home of (my name).... blank..????
30. anne - 'there's first love,and there's anne love' vewy vewy nicey ;p
31. evon- "Let's Face The Music and Evon".. umm..
@ yvonne- "Reach for the Yvonne"...LOL
32. alom - "alom really satisfies"..i do? @
petrus - 'splash petrus all over'...wadda?!
33. Elizabeth- Just like elizabeth used to make.
*Adrienne~things happen after and adrienne
34.MaLIa - Australians Wouldn't Give A Malia For Anything Else. (hahaha)...
35.Fakhrullah-"Tastes Great, Less Fakhrullah.".<--wakakaka..wth..
36. gloria- it's gloria time!.. *yeah baby!! *
37. aaron - Leggo My Aaron (uh???)
38. Alia - Make Someone Happy With An Alia. :)
39. Shareen - Half the Shareen, All the Taste. ;) hahah
40. Shira - I Scream, You Scream, We All Scream for Shira.
41. Dalila - The Best Dalila A Man Can Get.
42. Nabeela - Have Nabeela Your Way
43. Taufiq - Race for the Taufiq (hahahahahahaa)
44. Farahana - You Cant Top a Farahana
45. Rendra - Think Once, Think Twice, Think Rendra. (tht makes me sound like a drug.....)
46.yati - We Are Serious About Yati (what a crap..)
47.Let's buy the world of Mahhey
48. Aiman - Have You Had Your Aiman Today?
49. Ismat - It Takes A Tough Man To Make A Tender Ismat. O_o W T F
Nor Ismat - We Don't Make Nor Ismat. We Make Nor Ismat Better.

Monday, April 17, 2006

Praise the sun...

Guys, Malaysians especially, I suggest that you get your copy of The Sun everyday, and read... Here's some of the interesting articles I found in that free newspaper... And I mean "FREE"...

The oppression of conformity
Umran Kadir

Mat: We Muslims have it so hard these days. In the West, we're either ridiculed or looked upon with suspicion. In Iraq, a former centre of Islamic civilisation, Muslims are on the verge of civil war. Aren't we lucky to be in Malaysia where Muslims needn't fear violence or oppression?

Din: Yeah we're lucky to be living in such a peaceful country; but just how well off are Muslims?

Mat: What are you talking about? Thanks to our Constitution, Islam holds a special place in Malaysia and the government is responsive to the needs of the Muslim community.

Din: Just hear me out. I attended this forum last month on the Constitution and heard people from minority Muslim communities saying that they are being persecuted.

Mat: Are you referring to some odd cult? They aren't real Muslims anyway. Please don't start with your human rights nonsense. It's all a Western import you know.

Din: Well, the Constitution that you speak so highly of guarantees freedom of religion for all persons. Besides, there isn't a consensus among scholars on the limit of religious freedom in Islam. In fact, a number of prominent scholars believe that Islam upholds freedom of religion for everyone, including Muslims.

Mat: Are you certain?

Din: Yes, you can check it out for yourself. Did you know that in Penang there is a fatwa which prevents Shiite teachings?

Mat: Alamak! Are you serious? That's really odd, considering that there has been a Shiite community in Malaysia since before independence. And didn't the Iranian President just visit Malaysia?

Din: Yes. You can check on fatwas in Malaysian states on the internet (http://ii.islam.gov. my/default.asp).

Mat: I'll check it out. Hey, I just remembered that both Proton and Petronas have large investments in Iran as well.

Din: Odd policy we have, huh? But it's not just minority Muslim communities who are given a tough time. Did you know that under various state laws known as the Syariah Offence Enactments, it is currently an offence to question a gazetted fatwa? This offence is punishable by either a maximum fine of RM3,000, jail term of 24 months or both.

Mat: Hold on, I thought a fatwa was just a scholarly opinion that one could voluntarily abide by?

Din: That's the case in other parts of the Muslim world, but not here.

Mat: So you mean it's an offence for us to even think?

Din: It sure looks that way, doesn't it?

Mat: This reminds me of George Orwell's 1984! This serious discussion calls for a cigarette!

Din: Put that cigarette away.

Mat: Why? Afraid of a little secondhand smoke?

Din: Just thought you should know that there is a fatwa in Selangor that makes smoking cigarettes an offence.

The writer, a project manager with a software company, believes that by placing emphasis on justice and equality, we can make a better Malaysia.

(Shinnoir's note: Hah!... Not only we are paranoid of apostates (is that how we spell it?)... We are also paranoid of fellow Muslims...)

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Poverty in the midst of our plenty
Petra Gimbad

KUALA LUMPUR can be an odd place: where wealth and poverty sit side-by-side. Reading this did not make sense till I left Malaysia. Upon my return, I noticed for the first time the distorted scenery: KLCC, a symbol of our success, surrounded by squatters. I was confronted by this image wherever I drove. School taught us to take pride in our country's economic progress. Development, however, has not lifted everyone out of poverty and its effects.

I once knew a girl whose mother experienced breast pains. Breast cancer had killed her grandmother. Cajoling her mother to the doctor proved useless: Mak cakap, buat apa? Kalau ada apa-apa pun, bayar bagaimana? ("What's the point? Even if they find something, how are we to pay?") Sickness and death were not alien to her, having lost a brother to a "mysterious" illness a few years before. Apparently, he was fine one day, and died the next. It was years before it dawned on me that he was aware of his illness, but suffered quietly. For what good can talk do?

Poverty impacts choice: My mother told me of a girl who could not afford more than a meal a day. It was not uncommon for many girls in her situation to survive each day on a packet of Maggi noodles. For the few years they attend school, they travel by foot for an hour or two to their classroom, and another hour or two back. They drop out young, to feed their families. The few jobs available offer miniscule wages and scant chance of promotion.

Friends and I once tutored at a children's home which was extremely rundown - horrifyingly unsanitary (lice and scabies were common), and with more children than space. We would teach a child how to add and subtract numbers, returning only to discover that all was forgotten. The cycle was endless; these children lacked what we thought was normal: parents who bought books and sat down to teach, tutors when we struggled in school. Most of the kids did not complete their homework, because they did not know how. (One of the boys circumvented punishment by getting - I suspected bullying - a friend to do his homework.) Many teachers, I knew, would tell them off for laziness without acknowledging that the problem goes far deeper that that. When you do not have self-esteem, you will not believe yourself capable of anything. This was what hurt most: their adamant inability to believe in themselves. Studying requires faith that if one works hard enough, the answers will come. The children gave up all too easily in the face of math problems like `21 - 9 = ?' or writing one-line sentences in English, a language that is hard to grasp without sufficient exposure and patient teaching.

I had too many friends in school who believed they were stupid for performing dismally in math and English. Their ability to pass exams in spite of the little support they received was amazing. Our school system often allocates classes by exam grades. Placing the poorest achieving students into a single class can backfire, for they automatically earn the labels of dummies and no-gooders. As a temporary teacher, I was told by one teacher after another: "Oh, you're teaching `that class'? Don't even bother trying.

Seriously! They memang tak guna one! (They're really useless!)" A more patient colleague pointed out in all seriousness:

"Actually, kasihan (pity) these kids - their parents are poor, work all the time, no time to watch their kids, keep them out of trouble." Pause. "These will grow up to become your VCD sellers."

In the showdown between life and money, life can be worthless. These stories - people I know - cause me to grit my teeth when I listen to others talk about "the noble suffering of the poor".

It is cheap to give someone admiration, when there is cash to spare. In a country where the poverty line for a monthly household income is RM510, the poor have no need of words. What they deserve is what others have: a chance at life, with the choices many of us take for granted.

Petra likes feminism, social justice, and working on the online magazine, Vox. She is a law student in her spare time.

(Shinnoir's note: Hmm... I wonder if the Government will fulfill their promise and carry out whatever they have said for RMK9... Honestly, I'm tired of watching the people suffer, while the Malays who calls themselves as "leaders" and "protectors of civillians" are filling their own stomach...)

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

My apologies, readers... I think I'll have to postpone the introduction to my office senpais... But here's something for youguys to read, and ponder... Ripped from The Sun...


Hard talk on hidden prejudices
Shanon Shah

Conversations in my head, after stumbling upon a website:

Ronnie Paris, Jr.
Location: Tampa, Florida
Cause of death: Beaten to death by his father, Ronnie Paris, Sr.
Date of death: January 28, 2005
Paris, a three-year-old, died from swellings on both sides of the brain caused by his father, Ronnie Paris, Sr. Paris Jr. had been slapped against the head numerous times, until the child went into a coma. The father did not want to 'raise a sissy,' as the child had seemingly not been masculine enough for the father.


Unnamed transwoman
Location: Surco, Peru
Cause of death: Incinerated
Date of death: Nov 26, 2004
This unknown victim was roughly twenty-two years old. On the night of Nov 26, four people dropped her from a car, then set her body on fire.
(Source: The Day of Remembrance website, http://www.gender.org/remember/ day/who.html)


Shanon 1: Why have you listed these gruesome details here?

Shanon 2: Because lately, I've been getting sick of pondan and pengkid jokes. (pengkid = Malay slang for butch lesbians; female-to-male transgendered people) I've never understood the need to make fun of them, or to peddle hatred and fear towards them as though it were a patriotic or religious duty.

Shanon 1: But why are you so hung up about this? You're not even a pondan yourself!

Shanon 2: Well, I found this on the website, too:

Unknown Transperson
Location: Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia
Cause of Death: Slit throat
Date of death: Nov 11, 2005
Notes: If you have any information on this murder, please contact the city police hotline at (03) 2115-9999 or by sending an SMS to "POLISKL" at 32728.


This victim remains unknown, but was likely of Chinese of East Malaysian descent, but living within the local area. The victim's body was discovered head-first in a garbage bin, wearing a dark T-shirt, white shorts and padded bra. Police revealed that there was a single slash wound on the neck and numerous bruises on the body.

Shanon 1: And?

Shanon 2: Don't you see? Malaysia is also no stranger to incidents of violence towards transsexuals!

Shanon 1: What are you saying? There's no proof that any of these 'incidents' were motivated by hatred towards transsexuals. They could've all just been theft-related violence. You want to get arrested for making these unwarranted claims?

Shanon 2: Listen, when four people in Peru drop a transwoman from a car and set her body on fire, I have difficulty attributing their actions to 'theft'. When a father in Tampa, Florida beats his three-year-old son to death because he thinks his son is a 'sissy', I doubt that it's 'theft-related' violence. So I wonder about the Malaysian incident.

Shanon 1: OK, fine. But why are you worrying about these pondan and pengkid murders? Don't you have other things to worry about? The illegal occupation of Palestine and Iraq, for example?

Shanon 2: I can weep and act for the Palestinians and Iraqis, as well as for people who have died because of transphobia.

Shanon 1: Trans-what?

Shanon 2: Transphobia. You know, when transsexuals are kicked out of their homes, denied employment and publicly ridiculed. When many of them have to resort to sex work and petty crimes in order to survive, and are then accused of being transmitters of disease and threats to public order. When they are then arrested and humiliated even further. When they are beaten and killed. Just for being transsexuals.

Shanon 1: So drama lah you. Anyway, so some people can't stand pondans and pengkids. Big deal. You have to admit they're freaks anyway. Oh, sorry, am I guilty of 'transphobia'?

Shanon 2: Listen, in the District of Columbia, Tyra Hunter was involved in an automobile accident. When rescue workers discovered that she was a transsexual, they screamed obscenities at her and stopped administering treatment. She later died in hospital. You might not call that 'transphobia', but I'd call it a crime against humanity.

Shanon 1: Fine. You win. Oh, the poor pondans and pengkids. They get to transgress the very order of nature, and they have the likes of you to defend them. People with common sense get attacked for having a moral compass.

Shanon 2: Is your 'moral compass' telling you to justify these deaths?


Shanon Shah is a singer-songwriter whose debut Malay album, "Dilanda Cinta", was released last year to rave reviews. He also works on human rights issues, including gender, sexuality and HIV/AIDS.

Those who had experienced what the author said, might get what I'm getting at...

Monday, April 10, 2006

Update on the first day of internship...

Finally, exam is over... And Today marks the first day of my internship at PNB... As I promised before, I'll post about whatever happens during my internship there...

I came to work late today TT__TT... I had to collect a letter from my department (Department of Business Administration), so I had to wait for the office to open first... Supposedly, I should've collected the letter earlier... The problem is, I was only informed about the letter on the last day of exam, even worse, just before dinner!!... Nobody mentioned it to me earlier, not even the closest friends I have here... Wait a minute... I don't have even one close friend here +_+... Nasakenai na... But it's partly my fault as well... I should've keep my ears opened and eyes peeled for any latest news about the internship... Oh well, We can't turn back the time, right?... Later I was warned, no, advised to be punctual by the HR Officers...

You know what, the department I was assigned to was great!!... They are all friendly... Very friendly... It's just the first day, yet I feel almost at home... They didn't let us to be tense at all... I'll introduce the staff of the department to you guys later... With pictures, Insya Allah... I think they'll properly make an intro session once the staff are all present...

Day 1 consist of a short briefing on the department; its function, jobscope, significance, people incharge, etc, and also our first job (which may turn into our internship assignment)... I was kinda disappointed to learn that the division didn't involved in any investment activity, but the first task was not something I'm unfamiliar of... In fact, I may have enjoyed it :p... We were supposed to extract data from a list (data entry on a dumb terminal)... I guess my fingers will have ample exercise for the 3-month period XD...

I think I should make a forecast on my exam result here... Most probably will flop 2 subjects (flop, not fail)... The aother 4 subjects are okay, I think... And see an increase in my CGPA...

Friday, April 07, 2006

It's hillariously dirty XD...

Can't help but to post this... Snatched from my Friendster:

"penis" ya all...
Okay y'all.... this is a fun game... lets see how many people we can get to participate in it... The name of the game says it all.... all you have to do is copy this bulletin into a new one. Take the name of a TV show and replace one of the
words with PENIS. Don't forget to put your name on it - then we can all see how perverted our friends are. NO REPEATS!!!

1.Naomi~Sex & the Penis (city)
2.Keith~The Penis At Home (war)
3. Christina-Family Penis (guy)
4.Naomi~Penis Park (south)
5. Jackie ~ Penis Swap (wife)
5. Nate ~ PENIS or NO PENIS? (deal)
6. Gary ~ I Love Penis (Lucy)
7. Rob ~ Penis Rider (Knight)
8. Sess~ Penis Tuck (Nip), lol
9. John~ The real Penis (world)
10. Fran ~ One Penis at a Time (Day)
11. Dawn ~ The King of Penis (Queens)
12. Sedi ~ Iron Penis (Chef)
13. John ~ PENIS (ALF)
14. Heidi ~ Penis Corner Death Match (Craft)
15. Sarah~ Regis and Penis (Kelly)
16. Jason~ Who's the Penis (Boss)
17. Ben~ Golden Penis (Girls)
18. Ryan~Everybody Loves Penis (Raymond)
19. Lauren~ Penis in Charge (Charles)
20. Jessah ~ The Facts of Penis (Life)
21. John~ Who's penis is it anyway? (line)
22. Brandon~ Salute Your Penis (Shorts)
23. Alex~ Penis Island (Gilligans)
24. Kylie ~ $40 a Penis (day)
25. Shafira~ 3rd Penis From The Sun (Rock)
26. lado ~ who wants to be a penis (millionaire)
27. chibi ~ the amazing penis (race)
28. hakim ~ america's next top penis (model)
29. anas ~ pimp my penis (ride)
30. Bungga ~ main-main penis (cinta)
31. Beejay/Ben ~ Gila-Gila Penis Remaja (pengantin)
32. Baini ~ Penis Development (Arrested)
33. Leni ~ Penis in The Middle (Malcolm)
34. c9 ~ Still Penis(Standing) - Damn leni!! You're insulting my fav tv show!! >:(
35. zoejane ~ ada apa dengan penis? (cinta)
36. one ~ Mr & Mrs penis (smith)
37. zeek ~ Penis Hari Ini (wanita)
38. Fara (im too creative)
~ White Penis (Chix)
~ Along came Penis (Polly)
~ Dick n Penis (Jane) hahaha
~ My best friend's penis (wedding)
39.AJ (im creative too)
~Penis Geographic (National)
~Dr.Penis (House)
~Misteri Penis (Nusantara)
~Penis Return (Batman)
~Penis Wars (Star)
~Crime Penis Investigation (Scene)
~Akademi Penis (Fantasia)
40. Gie (me too...)
~Desperate Penis (housewives)
~Dude,Where's My Penis (car)
~Penis Day Out (baby)
~What A Penis Wants (girl)
~You've Got Penis (mail)
~Hot Penis (chick)
41. lyana
~P for Penis
~Penis and the Chocolate factory
~Just like Penis
~Big Penis's House 2 < Momma>
~Final Penis < Final Destination>
~Fing me Penis
~Penis Watch
~Penis Pan
42. LuFi
- penis harum sundal malam (pontianak)
- tentang penis (dia)
- ada apa dengan penis (cinta)
- lord of the penis (ring)
- baik punya penis (cilok)
43. Axlangel
- long penis (khorn)
- kisah penis (benar)
- king penis (kong)
- kuliah penis (cinta)
- persona non penis (grata)
- penis menjerit (KL)
- 9 penis (naga)
- Penis Idol (malasian)
-44. Rosec
- bujang penis(senang)
- who want to be a penis(millionaire)
- akademi penis(fantasia)
- trek penis(selebriti)
- carta penis(era)
45. zaffira
- the penis (apprentice)
- kunci penis (khazanah)

TUKAR NAME LAGU PULAK LA....

46. SaMeL
penis dalam lumpur (bernafas) - wings
inti penis (fada) - rabbani
penis tak kembali (pergi) - Rabbani
honey penis nya hangus (lempeng) - exist
losing penis (grip) - avril
penis of the week (flavor) - american hi5
penis buat kekasih (doa) - ramli sarip
sedang kan penis lagi tergigit (lidah) - p ramlee
penis kekasih (kasih) - in team

47. Nor Is (Layan je la)
Penisku Untukmu - (Lagu) Hasnol
Bahtera Penis - (Merdeka) Aishah
Siapalah Penis - (Aku) Amy Mastura
Bernafas Dalam Penis (camne tu???) - (Lumpur) Wings
----Lagu Inggeris leh?----
Can't Fight the Penis - (Moonlight) LeAnn Rymes
My Penis - (All) Mariah Carey
A New Penis Has Come - (Day) Celine Dion
Enter Penis - (Sandman) Metallica

Hadoi... Sape nak layan silekan... Tapi ceratin penyanyi tak digalakkan ye... Noraniza ngan M. Nasir jangan sentuh, ok :p...

Well, another paper done... Now for the biggest battle of the semester tomorrow... 2 papers, morning and evening... I feel like my life had been shortened by a few years >_<...

Wednesday, April 05, 2006

Selfish me...

Okay, I know I said, "No updates until after the exam", right... But things happen, and I believe I better drop a line or two about it...

First of all, some of you readers might not know about this, but the bus system in KL had been integrated already... Now you can just pay a max of RM4 and take any Rapid KL bus to most of the destination within KL... It does sound and look complicated at first, but once you got the hang of it, it's quite useful... Especially for a poor guy like me :p... Now, if only I could figure out how to get to Wangsa Maju by Rapid KL...

I've upgraded my computer... Now I have:
1) A Pentium 4 2.4Ghz Hyper Threading Processor
2) An ASUS Nvidia GeForce FX5200 Graphic Accelerator
3) A Creative SB Live! 5.1 Sound Card

Item 1 was given by a friend of Madi for free :p... Item 2 and 3 was bought over the internet at Lelong.Com at quite a nice price... Talking about Lelong.Com, I suggest you guys take a peek at the site as well... There's a lot of items you can buy there at a low price, if not reasonable...

Wan Azlan lost his mother on 3rd April at 3am... Let us share a moment of silence, and dedicate Al-Fatihah to her... May her soul rest in peace, blessed by His Grace... I don't know her personally... But I believe she's a kind person... And Wan Azlan seems to be closer to her, rather than his dad... I haven't seen Wan Azlan, yet... But I think it's better that I don't... I might end up hurting his feeling unintentionally... That's the only specialty of mine that I know of...

It's confirmed... I'M ONE OF THE MASUM (Majlis Sukan Universiti Malaysia) TEAM MEMBER FOR ARCHERY... Training will start during the break (that's after internship everyday), and the tournament will be in May... There's going to be a meeting on Thursday the 6th at 5.30pm... I hope I can atleast help the team win... Even if it's just by one point...

Lastly, this is something that I wish I could talk face to face with you, Ihab... Gomen, ne... Lately I just can't seem to trust anyone... It's like everyone treats me like a big joke... That's why I kinda lost it when you kinda laugh at the fact that I'm selling Nasi Lemak... I know, it's a small matter for me to be pissed of at... Then again, it's not like you have ever been in my shoes... Furthermore, about the question you posted as a counter to mine (you do have a habit of answering questions that you don't want to answer with another question, don't you... That makes you even cuter ^_^)... You're right... I don't want to be your best friend... No, let me rephrase that; I don't want to be just a bestfriend of yours... I want to be more than that...

Not just a bestfriend, but more than that...

I wonder what would be Nad-tachi's reaction when they read that... Maybe I shoudl just be frank about it: I never thought of Ihab as just a bestfriend... I'm infatuated with him... There are times that I wish he was mine alone... But of course, that's impossible... Even if it is mutual, there's no way that that's possible... To be honest, I've always see myself as a replacement... A very pitiful, pathetic replacement of someone I may never be at par with... Someone who was his bestfriend before... I'm still wondering, just what in the world gives me the right to earn the place as his bestfriend... In what way do I qualify to be one?... Of course, I've asked Ihab many times before... And as usual, he wouldn't answer... And because he's cute, I just stopped at that ^_^;;... Baka da ne, atashi wa...

Sunday, March 26, 2006

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Monday, March 20, 2006

A long hiatus...

Okay, today will be the last post of the semester... But don't worry, I'll be back blogging about my internship soon enough ^_^... OMG, I'll be in the job market soon... Nanka KOWAIII~~~!!! >.<...

Although I will not be blogging for quite some time, it doesn't mean that I will not be browsing the blog... Dakara do visit from time to time and comment/spam/whatever the cbox as well as the comment section... I'll try to respond to them as much as I could ^_^...

By the way, Puteri Nad seems to noticed the abundance of advetisements here... For your information, I'm trying to make some money over the internet... That should explain the addies, shouldn't it?... And if it's not imposing, I'd like you guys to try and join these surf and earn programmes:

Surf Junky
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At least you will not be net-surfing for nothing, right?...

Actually I was thinking about reminiscing on how I got Ihab as my bestfriend... Then again, it's too embarassing for me... Maybe I'll blog about it if Ihab asks me to :p...

Well then, until the exam is over... Shitsure shimasu~~~ :3...

Friday, March 17, 2006

A good idea?...

cara2 nk menghalau roomate korg yg tk sekepala....

1.Beli pepokok bonsai. Bercakap & tidor dengan pokok tu setiap hari. Selepas seminggu, bertengkar dgn pokok tu dan cakap "Aku tak boleh hidup sebilik dengan kau lagi" sambil keluar & menghempaskan pintu bilik dgn kuat... Buang pokok tu tapi biarkan pasu kat situ.

2.Beli pisau banyak-banyak. Tajamkan setiap malam sambil merenung roommate kao sambil
berkata "Tak lama lagi...tak lama lagi"

3.Bila roommate kau balik, berpura2 tengah telefon. Caci maki dan menjerit dengan kuat kat telefon tu. Lepas tu letak telefon dan cakap kat roommate kau bhw yg telefon tadi adalah mak dia. Cakap mak dia akan telefon balik.

4.Duduk & renung roommate kau dlm 2-3 jam. Kalau boleh, bawa member2 sekali sambil makan kacang & popcorn. Buat macam kau tengah tengok wayang.

5.(Khas Untuk Lelaki Sahaja) Pegang & gosok-gosok rambut roommate kau sambil berkata "Rambut kau hitam, lurus dan berkilat la... Macam teknik rebonding...". Sekali-sekala buat masa dia tengah tidur.

6.Sembunyikan seluar dalam/baju dalam kau yg telah dipakai bawah bantal roommate kau. Bila dia balik, komplen bhw seluar/baju dalam kau hilang. Toksah nak ngada2 pegi cari kat lain, pegi straight kat bantal dia. Lepas tu tuduh roommate kau
homo/gay/lesbian.

7.Ketika roommate kau sedang buka pakaian/bersalin pakaian, pandang dengan ghairah... kalau boleh lelehkan air liur sekali lagi bagus...(Pesanan pihak penaja:
AWAS! Teknik ini sangat merbahaya. Kalau kau tersilap pilih org, maka kau akan 'terkena' la...hahaha...)

8.Tahu peanut butter? beli sebotol. pastikan roommate kau tak tahu kau beli peanut butter. sapukan peanut butter kat seluar dalam kau yg telah dipakai di kawasan lubang najis. Gantung/letakkan seluar dalam tu kat tempat yg boleh dilihat oleh roommate kau. Bila dia balik, pura2 tekan perut & mengerang kesakitan. Lakukan 5 hari berturut2. sembuh pada hujung minggu. Sambung semula hari Isnin...

Thursday, March 16, 2006

A morning of emotions...

*Yawn* As usual, me and my sleepy self is blogging after class... Today is officially the last day of class, but there are 2 replacement classes to be attended tomorrow... Haih... Plus, there are 4 assignments to be submitted before the exam... *Sigh* Mou, iyada na >.<...

Today I got to class a bit late, even skipping my 8.00am English class :p... Why, you might ask... Well, I was currently stuck with 2 graphic novels I got from Rage Guy, titled Narcissu and Planetarian: Reverie of a Little Planet... I don't know how to describe them without posting a lengthy entry, so I guess I'll just ask you guys to download, install, and read them on your own... The novels were originally in Japanese, but the website had included the English patch together in the Zip file...

Narcissu evolves around 2 patients who suffered from terminal illness... While they were not confined to their beds, they know that they will soon die... The two of them we assigned to the 7F ward, a ward specially for those who will soon die... They also know their fate; to die in 7F, or at home... The story later tells about their journey, which ended with the suicide of the older patient...

Planetarian, in the other hand, tells about a Junker and his encounter with a robot left at a disfunctional planetarium... A touching story that makes me wonder about our humanity...

I found myself at the verge of tears reading them, and believe that you will, too... Given that you really absorb the story lah :p...

These days, I often found myself visiting Ihab's blog... It's good to know that he's always surrounded by good people... People whom I would probably feel awkward talking to... It somehow amazes me how we fit together well as bestfriends, despite the polar differences we have... He being the centre of attention, I being the usual loner... He's the smart one, I'm the slightly-less-than-stupid one (tak nak mengaku stupid tuh :p)... He's the most of the time fortunate guy, I'm the sometime fortunate guy... He's the type who could easily make friends, I'm the type who effortlessly make enemies... An even clearer evidence would be my cbox... It's empty... ... ...

Then again, since the ancient times it has been a rule of thumb that "the opposite attracts" ^_^... I guess I should just enjoy this friendship to the fullest... Until the inevitable come, and I'd have to leave his side...

Well, that's all for the time being, I guess... Might update this entry later tonight (if I have the motivation)... Now, how should I start on the ASSignments?...

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

Mom and Dad'a quirky quote...

I asked Mum and Dad about being an adult... Now let us share their answer:

Me: Mum, Dad, what does it mean to be an adult?. (Apa maknanya menjadi dewasa?)
Mum & Dad: Wise thinking, smart action, consistent thought. Or, become Dewan Bahasa - Dew+Asa!.. (Berfikiran bernas, bertindak bijak, berpendirian tetap. Atau jadi Dewan Bahasa - Dew+Asa!..)

Haih... That's my parents fyi... Sly as foxes... Plus there are two of them... Nanka... ... ... OMOSHIROI~~~~!!!... XD XD XD...

Monday, March 13, 2006

.Hack//Probability...

*Yawn* It's 3.30am in the morning, and here I am, wide awake after a marathon of .Hack//Sign... And while waiting for my laundry to finish, I thought that I could kill the time blogging on my thoughts...

You know, it hit me while I was watching .Hack... The line between reality and virtual is getting blurrer by the second... Right now, we have numerous MMORPG (Massive Multiplayer Online Role Play Game) titles available... Ragnarok, Fung Wan Online, etc... People are using the virtual world as their escape from the harsh reality... Then again, reality itself is something subjective... But that's for another discussion... Using the virtual world as their escape, users try to do things they can't do offline... Looking for friendship, love, place to belong to (something like Maslow's hierarchy of need, but I forgot which part :p)... But as they get familiar with the virtual world, they find it difficult to differentiate between the reality and virtual life... For instance, look at how many offline Player Killing cases happening across the globe... And we're not even close to the technology featured in .Hack...

Imagine if we have that kind of gaming technology... Visor-like control terminal, or even a more elaborated terminals like in Full Metal Panic (the one on the submarine)... You log in, stay in the game until you lost track of time, and can never log out without having trouble figuring out whether you are still in the game or are you offline... And then there's the problem of your input receptors going bonkers, which can be deadly... We all know that the mind tells you what you believe... Imagine you are playing Ragnarok using a VR terminal, and in the game you're being bashed to death by some monsters... To make it even better, the graphic is good enough to make you believe that you ARE being beaten to death... I wonder what'll happen?... Would you really die if your brain tells you that you are dead?...

But still, we ought to ponder whether the virtual world is good or not... Those who are my age would remember how they spend their childhood... Play tag, climbing trees, cycling around the village/housing estate, etc... But the younger generation spend their time in the virtual world... Nanka sabishii...

Saturday, March 11, 2006

*yawn*... Bleh, I'm still sleepy after all that sleep ~_~... Yare yare...

Anyway, felt more or less relaxed, since most of the critical assignments are done *phew*... Exam is just around the corner, and I'm not one bit nervous... Or so I thought... ... ...

Chatted with Suyin last night... It was a very short chat, too short for my liking at least... Considering that I may not talk to her in a year... Or should I say, last night may be the last time we talked... I guess I've gotten too attached with her... Which may be a good thing, then again, maybe a bad thing...

We talked about which is more important to her between a bf and manga collection (obviously MANGA), and whether she has someone whom she cherished above all else (not anymore)... Then I popped the question I would always ask my close dearests, "moshi me no mae ni atashi ga shinda, dou omou?" (for translation, please grab the nearest Japanese divtionary, or call your nearest Japanese speaking friend ^_^)... I got almost the same answer I got from Ihab... Except that Ihab would ignore me after giving me a scolding... Why are most of the people I got attached to seem to be going faraway... ... ...

I bet you guys have read her post about the "tudung saji" incident at Nezumi, Times Square, right?... To Suyin, here's a tudung saji:



Oops, lab's closing... Until then, ja ne :3...

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

After a long hiatus (yeah, right)...

Just highlighting some events happening now and then...

# I got a placement for internship at Permodalan Nasional Berhad (beside Tabung Haji main building), Unit Trust Division... Internship starts on 10th April...

# Currently, I'm a Nasi Lemak seller... Feel free to call me for ordering :p...

# Went for a date with Suyin on Sunday... Damn, I'm going to miss her for a year TT__TT... Jun Jun joined us later that evening... OMG, she's grown up!!!...

# For heavy internet users, I would like to suggest you guys to join these programmes:

Surf Junky
Studio Traffic

At least you could earn while surfing XD...

That's all for now... Will post a long post before the end of the month :p...

Monday, December 19, 2005

In trouble... Mayoi, mayoi, koneko-chan...

Ah... I'm currently in cho dai-trouble... Got several not so good news... First from PTPTN, saying that my loan has ended already (eeep >.<)... but I still have a couple of semesters until I graduate... Dou shi yo TT__TT... Then TMnet called, reminding me of my unpaid internet account... Fortunately mum offered to pay it on my behalf (love you, mum)... And now my friend asked me to find a source of income ASAP (I bought an mp3 player from him thinking that I'd still have my loan to pay him)... There's no way I'm canceling the purchase... The mp3 player is the only thing that kept me sane all this while TT__TT...

Okay, that aside... Suyin seems happier nowadays (like all high-school students, before they start their college/varsity life XD)... I think I won't be needed anymore... Then again, I was never needed in the first place... Who would be crazy enough to have a lousy, ugly, gay malay as a "brother" after all?... Well, I wish her all the best, and may she have enough of everything in life... As for me, I'll just see what life have in store for lil' old me ^_^... Though for the time being, all I can see is a long period of loneliness... Boyz2Men's "4 Seasons of Loneliness", anyone?...

Shinta came~~~... And gave me his old (and broken XD) graphic card... But I can't use it yet, since I need to have certain software to make the broken graphic card work well... If not, it'll be the end of me :p...

*Sigh* I have no idea what to write at the moment... Empty stomach, empty brain :p... Ma, ato tsuzusasemasu... Shitsure shimasu :3...

Monday, December 05, 2005

Ah, tsukareta...

Saturday, 031205, 2206.

Finally, I managed to start off a bit on the business paper I'm supposed to work on a long time ago... Got stuck somewhere in the middle, so I had to call Uncle Azid to get a better picture of what I'm supposed to be doing... He then suggested that I come and meet him at his office at around 5pm... I wonder if I could come back on time ~_~...

Suyin called, mentioning about an EB held at One Utama, and also Comic Fiesta... She's not too keen on going to the EB (because Suyin does not go well with "Elegant" *chuckles*)... But I managed to persuade her to go anyway... After all, there are some faces wish to see again... Including the person who casted a curse on me XD... That's you, Xiong Ie XD XD...

Have you guys heard the song "Amrita" by Yui Makino?... I kinda liked the song, since the lyrics sounded sad and sentimental... Just like me XD... Will be looking for the full lyrics soon... Maybe I'll start pasting favourite lyrics on my room wall...

I want to read Yami no Matsuei!!!... I have up to Volume 5 Chapter 5... I want to read more TT__TT *curses Viz for licensing the manga*... I want more yaoi manga... Currently short on yaoi manga... But I got a lot of yuri manga, though... *Sigh* I'm sooooo NOT normal ~_~...

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Monday, 051205, 0800.

Woke up late today... Was... ... ... Busy and occupied with something *blush*... Anyway, today marks the first day of class, and the busiest week of the semester, since students will be trying to match their schedule to their liking... One of them would be me, since I have another subject I wish to take...

Yesterday was very tiring... I went to UM for nothing... Well, partly it's my fault... I should've called before I was on my way... Oh well... At least I've left a note... My boss would call me anytime soon today...